Who will I run to?

♥Monday, November 09, 2009


All of times to fall sick,
i fall sick now.
STUPID.
Must be all the walking in rains,
crying in cold,
and the stupid weatherswing.

But i dun care.
Not as if im dead yet.
Fever makes me HOT.
YAY! -.-

Cant believe myself was staring at the ahs newsletter during chinese today -.-
Make myself sad only.
Today is a sad day.
Cheer up everybody.
Tmr is Os,
goodluck ppl.

Hope i dun get a freaking headache tmr.
Life sucks.

ich liebe dich_
7:15:00 PM

♥Sunday, November 08, 2009


LIFE SUCKS.
Deleted everything that i've typed out and move it to wordpress instead.

Stomach feels damn weird.
Feels empty but im full.
Feels nauseous but dun have anything to vomit out.
Bloated.

Damn helpless.
Nobody cares.
Mum dun care,
dad dun care,
even you also dun care.
Would it even matter to you if i die one day?
Sometimes, i wonder.
How do i even land myself in such a pathetic state?

It doesnt matter anymore i guess.
Cause to you, im nth.
Not even a stranger.

ich liebe dich_
8:10:00 PM

♥Friday, November 06, 2009


I see my archives' list getting longer and longer.
Time seems to trickle off our fingers like sand.
& it's just impossible to rewind time and go back to how it used to be.

I suck.
Suck to the max.

Dance today.
WAS DAMN LAG.
Idk wth is wrong with me.
Mind seems to wander off damn easily.
Feel damn pressurised and everything.
I really cant do anything right.
Whatever i do, it will always be wrong, isnt it?

But still, I LOVE DANCE.
I love dancing.
Seems to take mind off things although mind will still wander off to somewhere else -.-
Esp when there are no instructors and we are learning self choreographed dance.
LOVEEEEEEEEE.
Idk what's with this sudden passion.
Kind of looking forward to orientation.
Time to scam ppl in joining dance.

Life sucks.
Sucks, sucks sucks sucks.
10000000000 sucks also not enough to express the feeling.
Been having certain weird feelings nowadays.
Idk how to describe it.
It's just... weird.

Slack my day off everyday.
No life.
No life.
No life.
No life.
No life.
No life.
No life.

Screw life.
Having headache now.
Don't understand why does life suck so much.
Feel like going out, but im lazy.
Feel like shopping, but rather shop online.
I have no life.
I suck.

Seriously, sth damn wrong with me.
Suddenly lose confidence in everything.
Even in dance.
Feel damn bloody pressurised today.
Or maybe im giving myself too much stress.
Crap.

ich liebe dich_
10:14:00 PM

♥Thursday, November 05, 2009


Weather nowadays is damn crappy.
Rain, stop, rain, stop.
Just like moodswing.
Cry, stop, cry, stop.

3F is weird.
Like what many teachers said.
We're not like any of the typical triple sci class.
Guess our class is really damn screwed up now.
Mr ong might even lose his job.
Whole class was feeling damn guilty about it,
but there's nth we can do.

Realised that not eating = saving alot of money.
Saving alot of money = SHOPPING.
Didnt eat much this few days.
Everyday skip breakfast recess and lunch.
And surprisingly im not hungry.
Recess is a good time to chiong hw that im lazy to do at home/memorise tingxie.
Life sucks.
I feel like a no lifer.

Moodswing.
Feel like crying again.

I guess i had overlooked the fact.
I didnt know i would fall for you so deep and hard.
And now it's impossible to pull myself up again.

I'm sad. So what? Just cut.
Credits to meowmeow.

ich liebe dich_
9:44:00 PM

♥Wednesday, November 04, 2009


It's the day of the year again.

Done what i could do.
Cried till tears are dry.

I miss you.

ich liebe dich_
9:33:00 PM

♥Tuesday, November 03, 2009


Im entitled to only 15mins usage of com due to what happened ytd night.
Not supposed to touch com at all in the first place.
But i dun care, 15mins better than nth.
Crappy -.-
But at least,
i dun feel that bad.
I've completed what i want to do and im happyyyyyy.
Hopefully it's worth it... ):

Went meow house today.
Completed my stuff.
At first going dhoby for lunch.
In the end, everybody lazy.
TEAMMY DAMN CUTE.
Stare at me when im eating my kfc -.-
And jump like mad when he see popcorn chicken.
Watched the grudge 2.
Not as scary.
LALALALA.

Time's up.
Life sucks.
Time flies ):
I still can remember what happened 2 years ago.

ich liebe dich_
10:24:00 PM

♥Monday, November 02, 2009


LIFE SUCKS LIFE SUCKS LIFE SUCKS.
NEVER FAIR.

Anyway jacq is becoming like meeeeeee.
She thinks life sucks.
She eat the same subway combi as me today.
honey oat + coldcut trio + cheese + lettuce tomato cucumber + white chip macadamia + ice lemon tea.
exactly the same.

I think endorphin rocks,
cause i bloody injured my feet ytd,
damn pain plus today limping -.-
so more endorphins are released from the pitituary gland which is stimulated by the hypothalamus in the brain.
ah whatever.
bio -.-
but endorphins are addictive.
like seriously.
zzzz, think jacq agrees with me also.

LIFE SUCKS!
i bloody did my chi homework today just to use com.
and do some impt stuffs.
BLOODY IMPT.
whatever, nobody will know how bloody impt it is.
plus im short of time.
boooo.

overreacted ytd.
im crazy -.-
think too much.
stupid.

life sucks.
esp when i use com.
confirm 100% sumpa emo plus cry.
wth.

ich liebe dich_
9:58:00 PM

♥Sunday, November 01, 2009


Time flies.
& i know im not okay.

Tell me how would i be okay without you?

ich liebe dich_
7:03:00 PM

♥Saturday, October 31, 2009


Halloween today, so happy halloween :D

I think i have depression -.-

SIGNS AND SYMPTOMS OF DEPRESSION IN TEENS
-Sadness or hopelessness
-Irritability, anger, or hostility
-Tearfulness or frequent crying
-Withdrawal from friends and family
-Loss of interest in activities
-Changes in eating and sleeping habits
-Restlessness and agitation
-Feelings of worthlessness and guilt
-Lack of enthusiasm and motivation
-Fatigue or lack of energy
-Difficulty concentrating
-Thoughts of death or suicide

I think i have like at least 8 out of 12.

Okay, idk why im researching bout all this.

Self injury.

Cutting - involves making cuts or scratches on your body with any sharp object, including knives, needles, razor blades or even fingernails. The arms, legs and front of the torso are most commonly cut because they are easily reached and easily hidden under clothing

Hitting (with hammer or other object), Bone breaking, Punching, Head-banging (more often seen with autism or severe mental retardation)
[This is more for guys punching wall -.-]


Alot more stuffs i found,
but not going to post it,
if not it will be spammed by all this stupid depression thingy.

I think i need help.
Maybe.

ich liebe dich_
11:02:00 PM

♥Friday, October 30, 2009


I want you to remember the feel of my hair and remember the scent of my perfume I always wear. Remember my laugh and how sweet our kisses used to be. Remember the way that you used to love me.
-eletheowl.tumblr.com


I didnt feel anything aft getting back results.
Somehow.
I improved.
But it doesnt matter, cause mid years is really a major screw up.

Sometimes you have to admit,
life is sucky.
It really is.

Went out to eat with jacq and val today.
Was damn silent throughout.
I finally know how to put those feelings into words.
It's like...
You do the things he used to do,
you eat the food he used to eat,
you drink the drinks he used to drink,
you adapted all his little habits.
Just to imagine he's still there.

Went val's house,
she was reading out all the tumblr quotes to me.
At first i was closing my eyes and thinking bout things,
then the next minute,
i fell aslp.
She fell aslp too.
Woke up and i went to find mandy,
and val went to meet up with 3d ppl.
I hate going home.

Lol.
God loves playing such pranks with me.
That kind of scene would only happen in drama la.
And the moment i walked away,
i turned back,
i cried.
Of course you don't know,
right?

Im such a cry baby.

I rmb 2yrs ago,
night games are screwed up.

ich liebe dich_
10:24:00 PM